It's 4:15am

It's 4:15 am - time to get up.  By this time in residency - 3rd year - you're used to abnormal schedules and abnormalities of many kinds.  Life still throws you a curveball every now and then and you deal with it.  I still like what I do.  At the same time I'm glad I had a career before medicine to provide me perspective that there is life outside the medical career and that the sometimes "obsessive" ways we do things are but one way to approach work.  This profession can be all-consuming and it takes a lot of effort to balance work and personal life - that part never seems to get any easier.  You find that like hygiene ... balancing needs to become part of your daily routine or it won't happen.